being SINGLE is not a CURSE!

ini cuma luahan hati sahaja.tiada kaitan antara yang hidup ataupun yang telah meninggal dunia.bacalah jika anda suka dan tutup mata jika tak suka :)

dalam hidup,ada macam-macam dugaan.antara yang paling sakit bila seseorang ditipu or dikhianati oleh insan tersayang.i admit,i experienced that few times in my lifetime.i used to claim that 'every guys is the same',haha,but i know it's WRONG.sik semua laki jaik..some are just too good,cuma..cuma..cuma..haha.haish,unexplainable.

sometimes kan,i wonder bah,why BEATRICE always being cheated?am i too pathetic?am i too innocent?haha.but i know,God for sure has His own reasons.when i flew back to Sarawak last sunday,im thinking of my past life.my love memories.all the bitterness.haish,too speechless to share with u all..breaking up???unrequited love???it is for my own goodness.God actually works in His way.He want to show that i was not meant for that person.so,should i blame God?NO~

last exam,i dealt with love problem.huh,by that time,nang merinsaklah jiwa dan raga..but i managed to handle my feelings n emotions dgn adanya kawan-kawan.k la,let me named them as my appreciation (LIANA ANAK ANDING, NURHAJRINA BINTI JARAWI)..Both of them are my Dr Love.not to forget,my classmates yg banyak berik support.yes,18 of u.. :)

that was the most complicated love problem that i faced..sampeykan at one time,i just hate to LOVE.but thanks be to God,He shows me the way.im not meant for him n he's not meant for me.actually,we're not in a relationship.he's just my best fren that time.God slowly took all my tears n sadness.

Nasib x affect my exam.i thought it was but after nangga result,PRAISE THE LORD.it proved me wrong.benda ya bukannya melemahkan or menjatuhkan aku,but membuatkan aku jadi makin kuat.I'm a STRONG BEATRICE!

So now,i go on with my new life n im happy with it.BEING SINGLE IS NOT A CURSE.bak kata orang,belum masanya gik.hehe..sikpa,yg penting,jangan jadi desperate.hehe...jodoh ada di mana-mana n aku percaya,mun kita bait,TUHAN pasti akan sediakan yang terbait juak untuk kita.sik perlu perfect.yang penting,menerima kita seadanya till DEATH do us part.aisehhh.

till then,daaaa~~

Don't chase love for it is like a butterfly. The more that you run after it, the further it flies away. Leave it alone and it will come to you when you least expect it.

Praise the Lord!

Gawai???Damn AWESOME!

Trip to Sibu???Very AWESOME!

Trip to KL???Extremely AWESOME!

Holiday was fun! I enjoyed it!

Sibu trip~gathering with frens n classmates,recalling bac the precious moment that we had last time were one of the most memorable memories of 2011.thanks to Barbara n family, Agnes n family, Christine Agam, Jane Francesca n other frens for the nice stay,food n treats!

Kuala Lumpur trip~goshhhh,it was so fun being at KL.i cant stop myself from shopping n eating.$$$ pun melayang gak..hehe...thanks beloved sis for accompanying me..

besides,gathering with PLKN frens made my days at KL becoming more meaningful..my first experience ice skating at Sunway Pyramid,wow,two thumbs up.i like it...lepak2 at Putrajaya til midnight,enjoy the view,shoot here n there n the next morning,reunion at Mid Valley..main game keta,bowling,makan2...for sure,i'll cherish that moments..

6 days at Kuala Lumpur - 4 shopping complex..cukuplah..mun sik,makin banyak duit habis lak..hahaha...

One more to share,congratulations to all my classmates.thank God,we passed our exams!

till then,wanna have my dinner!

Too hard to describe.

I learned something today:

Do not take things for granted. If you love someone or something, prove it. Don't play with people's heart. It's TOO FRAGILE to be broken. If you want, make sure you appreciate it. If you don't want, better be sincere with your own feeling.

Never give your FALSE HOPE if you're not into it. You may hurt yourself n even others too.

Never force people to love you. No point bah. At first, people may do it because of his/her sympathy. But at last, that love may means nothing. It will surely fade away. So, in a relationship, look for the one who truly loves you and i can guarantee that u'l find no regret in your life.

Last note: Thanks a lot for teaching me the meaning of lives. I'm phobia of falling in love again.

SIAPA AKU?

Hmmm..

Aku selalu tertanya-tanya,apakah pandangan orang tentang aku?Lumrah manusia la kan…

And this what I used to hear..

· Skema

· Budak pandai

· Alim

· Lurus bendul (ikut je arahan)

· High class

Bagi aku, “label-label” macam ni la kadang-kadang buat orang takut nak dekat dengan aku,takut nak kawan dengan aku…

So,biar aku katakan pada seluruh dunia siapa aku sebenarnya.

ü SKEMA???errrr..not really.n i’m not NERDY too..orang salu cakap orang opsyen sains ni nerdy.pls la, tlg la jgn fikir mcm tu..frankly speaking,I’m not into books.BUKU memang kawan baik aku tp time exam je.hahaha.n one more thing,tak semestinya orang pakai spek tu budak nerd.aku pakai spek bukan sebab aku rajin baca buku tapi sebab aku dulu suka tengok tv dekat-dekat..my fault.

ü Budak pandai??? hahaha..jangan menilai kepandaian orang melalui result exam or pointer..hehe.sbb kepandaian ni sangat abstrak.cemerlang akademik tak semestinya cemerlang aspek lain.maybe im good in certain things,but dlm benda lain,kadang-kadang aku pun perlu tunjuk ajar orang juga.everyone is not perfect.that’s it.mcm aku,aku tak pandai fizik dan aku sangat susah untuk jatuh cinta dengan fizik..

ü Alim???hmmm..how to say owh…proud to say,I’m God’s child.n He is my superhero…though I used to go to church,doesn’t mean that I’m not sinful at all,doesn’t mean that I’m totally perfect..masih banyak lg benda aku perlu belajar dalam agama ni sebenarnya..who knows,one day in the future,if I have a family,then I’l know how to guide my family by His teachings.

ü Lurus bendul???oh pls la..i do BREAK the rules..n yeahh,I don’t want to stick with the rules that I feel doesn’t make sense at all.hehe..

ü High class???tersangatla tidak..satu lagi yang penting,AKU BUKAN ANAK ORANG KAYA.aku dilahirkan dalam keluarga yang sederhana.cukup makan,cukup pakai,cukup kasih sayang.tu je..hehe..walaupun aku dibesarkan di bandar,takla bermaksud aku orang yang mementingkan status,brand.. hehe.n one more thing,my EOS550d bukan my dad yang belikan.semua tu duit sendiri because my dad said to me,if that’s your passion,go on as long as u didnt burden yourself..so kumpul punya kumpul,tercapai jugak la hasrat aku untuk ada DSLR n SPEEDLIGHT sendiri.

P/S: Kesimpulannya,berdasarkan huraian di atas (macam buat esei la pulak)….hahaha..dont judge a book by its cover…

Kepada kawan-kawan yang belum dan sedang mengenali aku, buangkanlah rasa takut untuk mendekati aku hanya sebab korang ingat aku ni SKEMA,BUDAK PANDAI,ALIM,LURUS BENDUL & HIGH CLASS.aku tak seperti yang disangka dan aku suka berkawan dengan sapa2 jak…aku tak memilih dalam bab berkawan.as long as ikhlas,I’ve no problem with u..hehe..n for sure,i still have lotsa things to be learned..SETIAP MANUSIA ADA KELEBIHAN n KEKURANGAN MASING-MASING…

and kepada kawan-kawan rapat aku,they know who is the REAL Beatrice.thanks for your understanding.u know who u r.. :D :D :D

Till then,peace no war!

IBU,engkaulah ratu hatiku.

No words can describe how deep is my love for u,mum..

Yes,u mean a lot to me ^^

Have a blessed mother's day!